The Hair Conflict, part deux

Indecisive, that's me!  When it comes to hair, anyway.  With an appointment with the stylist fast approaching I'm changing my mind about what I want done with it roughly every thirty minutes.  Maddening, I tell you, maddening! 

I know more than one person who outright refuses to grow their hair long anymore because their mother made them keep it long until they were old enough to decide otherwise.  The aversion to long hair rooted in them by their being forced to keep it long makes them cut it constantly.  It gets past shoulder length and here come the scissors.  Maybe they'd even like long hair, on a subconscious level, but that memory of their mother raking a brush through waist length hair and refusing to allow them to cut it resounds in their minds.  So short it stays.  I have the opposite problem, I think.  More than once I've gone to the salon with longer hair, intending to make a dramatic change.  And more than once I've come away with a short, cropped style I wish was longer within a week of getting it cut.  Maybe this is why I have a fear of cutting it...  I loathe coming away from a haircut with locks too short to keep in an updo.  I crave a change but that old fear keeps coming to mind.

My other option is getting the perm I thought I wanted.  But that was half hour ago.  Actually, what changed my mind was trying on a bathing suit at the mall.  Seeing my hair from the back in one of those three way mirrors made me realize how much of a mess it is!  I thought I wanted long hair.  Now I wonder if I just liked the idea.  Long hair itself can look very pretty but what I have now seems to be swallowing my face and accentuating everything I DON'T want accentuated.  Maybe super long hair just isn't for me, curly or not.  I really would like to see what a perm would do for me but if it doesn't provide the rescue from the hair doldrums I'm hoping for it means money down the drain and chemically fried hair on top of it.  I'm thinking I should take the safe route and just go for a new, albeit shorter style...

If I could get a longer version of this, I think I could be happy with it.  I love her layers, just a little shorter than I'm comfortable with.  Again, the old fears!

This one is a winner for me.  If I got it cut and it came out like this, I'd definitely be happy!

The dreaded appointment is fast approaching.  To be continued!